One of the things I seem to struggle with constantly is this feeling that I am not wanted. I know I have a family that loves me, but I'm getting older, ready to move on to college, and I won't always be around them. So, I find myself living day-to-day life never really feeling wanted. I'm just kind of that "fill-in" friend that people call when all their other friends are busy and they need someone to... fill in. It gets really difficult thinking about how, well, am I ever really wanted?
God made man in his own image, and they we went and screwed up royally by eating the fruit and becoming far less than perfect. If you're that person that's always like I would never have eaten the fruit. Adam and Eve ruined it for all of us, then you've probably never heard of hindsight bias. All of us would have eaten the fruit. But, if God knew we were going to mess up, then why would he ever make us?
I'm always looking for the next thrill in my life. I have a countdown app on my phone. It's always counting down to something else that I think will give me the excitement I think I need. I crave excitement, but as a result, I rarely feel like I live in the moment.