One of the things I seem to struggle with constantly is this feeling that I am not wanted. I know I have a family that loves me, but I'm getting older, ready to move on to college, and I won't always be around them. So, I find myself living day-to-day life never really feeling wanted. I'm just kind of that "fill-in" friend that people call when all their other friends are busy and they need someone to... fill in. It gets really difficult thinking about how, well, am I ever really wanted? I go through life feeling very alone sometimes. I really live inside my head and don't open up to people often. So, I have this habit of carrying all of my problems and all of my stress and all of my securities inside of myself, which can be quite a lot for a seventeen year old girl. Something screwed with me lately, though, that's changed me. I cannot stop thinking about how--despite my feeling of never being wanted-- it says over and over in the Bible about how much God wants me. I can feel like I don't have much value, but God promises otherwise. Why, when it doesn't seem like anyone in the world wants me, does God work so hard to pursue and love me? It seems too good to be true sometimes. I can live my life saying "no one wants me" but that would be a total lie. Because the only person who really matters does want me. In fact, he loves us so much it is unfathomable. God realized my greatest fear, losing my family, by giving up his only Son, his heir, just so we could be together forever. It feels surreal. I can barely find someone who likes me enough to save me a seat at the lunch table, but here I have this God who promises never to leave me, never to forsake me, and who died for me? God will save you a seat at the lunch table for a million years because he loves you more than you'll ever know! So here I am, even when I feel unwanted, I know that I have more love than I know what to do with. I have the never-ending love of my God. He wrote a book even, just to show how much he loves us. The story of the Bible has the underlying theme of love and wanting. God made us, and loves us endlessly, but we messed up, so God made a plan, eventually sacrificing unimaginably, all so we could remain with him once again. You are so wanted. So wanted. A lot of people, young women especially, like me, can feel unloved. We walk around feeling insecure, picking apart ourselves until only our insecurity remains. We don't feel like we are enough, like we are truly wanted by anyone. We need to remember that "[we] were born by his purpose and for his purpose," as pastor Rick Warren puts it. You are here because someone, THE someone, wants you here. Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save: he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with singing 1 John 3:1a See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! 1 John 4:10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear... Author's Note: For King and Country hits this home and have used their platform to tell women like me that they are priceless. Unmatchable. They urge us to not cheapen ourselves and to know our true worth, and their song, Priceless, reflects their beliefs. Strongly recommend you check them out.
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